Literally died when I found out that Maria was pregnant. Like, I am going to be an Aunt. And a child on this earth is going to be part of me. I can’t.
As you guys might know, Maria and I are so close. We’re not just sisters, but best friends and business partners (which can be a challenge at times 😉 ). Most of you think we’re twins, but we’re not. We just look a lot alike. She’s 3.5 years older than me and just like kills it at life. I’ve always looked up to her throughout my entire childhood. Like even applied to the same colleges as she did. She’s now married to the most genuine guy with the biggest heart (Hi Lou), bought a condo in Hoboken, and is pregnant with her first child. Talk about the perfect timeline.
I on the other hand, am at a much different point in my life and my timeline seems to be going at a little slower pace than hers. I’m still single, but dating, and my social life seems to be stronger than ever. I’m also obsessed with doing inner work, meditating, and reading every self help book there is out there. I know, it all probably sounds cliche for a 27 year old girl in New York, but sometimes I wonder when I’ll have stability and certainty in my life. Because like every week is something new.
Don’t get me wrong, I love my life and I am so so fortunate. I’ve spontaneously traveled the world – like literally have packed for Thailand and left in 20 mins. I’ve dated all different types of men, many who are so fascinating, brilliant, and doing such amazing things in this world. I am on my own schedule and my own time and there is something really nice about that. I don’t cook, I just order Postmates every day, and one of the biggest stresses I have is which work out class I am going to do. But between this I am always wondering when it will be my turn. When I will have the husband, the home, and the children like my sister has. Because we are so close, I want to have children close to hers so they can be best friends like we are. I do believe that despite all the fun it may look like I am having, what is truly important in this lifetime is your family and the children you bring into this world. It’s kind of crazy to think that the people who I am going to love more than anything I haven’t even met yet. Like that blows my mind.
So, with 2018, I want to start this year off by accepting where I am in my life and not putting any pressure around it. I am so grateful for where I am and still not knowing so much that will happen in my life. It is sort of like watching the most amazing movie, and I haven’t even gotten to the best part. And whenever the relationship and children will come for me, I still have my little nephew who I will spoil and love so much.